A Time to Mourn, and a Time to Dance
7:10 PM
When you say "au revoir" in French, it literally translates to "till seeing again".
On June 21st, 2016, we bid our beloved mother au revoir. Dad lost his wife and friend of over thirty years, and the world lost one incredible lady.
And frankly, as I stood beside her bed that afternoon and saw what remained of the mother that had raised me, loved me, and faithfully been there for me for twenty-five years...I envied her. I'm a coward - I wished that I could have gone first. I didn't want to face life without her; couldn't imagine how we were going to find a new normal.
Yet for Mom, I never shed a tear. My heart aches for us - for Mom, it rejoices. God answered our prayers for her to be rid of the cancer that ravaged her body by calling her home.
Mom is finally cancer-free.
And I have faith that not only will I get to see her again; we will spend eternity together, singing hallelujah to the Lamb.
Mom,
A mere "Thank you" cannot begin to do justice to the gratitude that I feel for the role that you have had in my life. World's Greatest Mom is a title that could easily have been yours, yet it wouldn't be good enough for you. You were a mother, yet you were so much more.
I wish you could have heard some of the words that we heard echoed over and over again at the viewing and funeral. About how kind you were. How generous. How many lives you touched in the short time that we were so incredibly blessed to have you here with us.
Today makes two weeks since that heart-wrenching day that marked the beginning of this new chapter in our lives. Fourteen long days in which I never fail to look for you, or have to stop myself from asking where you are at some point in the day.
Words aren't enough, but since they are all that I have left to give you, here goes-
Thank you.
For loving me and raising me. For punishing me, for spanking me, and for crying with me. For laughing with, and even for laughing at me (no, I'm not going to forget you laughing while I panicked about a needle - you laughed then, and you laughed every time that I reminded you about it). You taught me about cooking and cleaning, birds and gardening, friendships and boys. You showed me Jesus. Demonstrated how to walk in His steps.
You helped me make a decision that gave us a promise that no matter what happened here on earth, we could always hold on to the hope of eternal life.
And for that, and so many other things, I am forever indebted to you.
I miss you, Mom.
I still love you the most-est of all the most-est.
-Kindra
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Praying for you all... These are beautiful words Kindra!
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ReplyDeleteThanks for sharing your thoughts and kind words. Your mother was a special person and will be missed by many. We are happy that her battle with cancer is over. You and the rest of your family are in our prayers. Tom & Jenny
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